I've been thinking a lot about being a mom of three under 3 1/2 lately with a busy husband and wanted to write about how I'm feeling.
In essence, I'm going back to the basics of blogging. This is not a review, this is not an ad, this is purely my heart. I don't care about the numbers or who is viewing this or anything....this post is for me during this Easter season.
I'm sitting here listening to "Closer To Your Heart" by The Belonging Co with Kari Jobe.
Nate is falling asleep in his crib and Andrew's reading books to Wesley and Reid in their teepee with their flashlights. A simple and peaceful end to a crazy week. A week where I was alone for bath night, all dinners, and through a few snow days. A week where I felt emotionally spent, insane at times, strong at times, and couldn't wait for 7pm or nap time other days. Days where there were bloody noses, cancelled plans, forgotten dinners, snotty noses, and mud tracked into the kitchen from outside. This week was full of tears, discipline, messes, and chaos.
But....He helped me embrace the chaos.
That's what my blog is all about, right? Embracing this crazy season of life as a wife and mom. After a week of spills, crying, and tantrums, today has ended by being a peaceful evening of rest. In the quietness and stillness of my Friday night, my heart is bursting with gratitude and thankfulness for this beautiful season of life. Yes, it's hard. We, as moms, say that ALL THE TIME. "It's so hard being a mom." But today, I've been getting lost in His love, focusing on what I HAVE, and with tears streaming down my face I want nothing....I have everything and there's not one thing I would change about my life. Because when Jesus fills your life and you allow Him to pour Himself into your life, abundance flows. Love flows. Goodness flows. The Spirit is present. Freedom comes. Rest comes. He draws us close.With Easter right around the corner, it's so good to remember what this season is about.
1 After the Sabbath, at dawn on the first day of the week, Mary Magdalene and the other Mary went to look at the tomb.
2 There was a violent earthquake, for an angel of the Lord came down from heaven and, going to the tomb, rolled back the stone and sat on it.
3 His appearance was like lightning, and his clothes were white as snow.
4 The guards were so afraid of him that they shook and became like dead men.
5 The angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified.
6 He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay.
7 Then go quickly and tell his disciples: ‘He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.’ Now I have told you.”
Matthew 28: 1 - 7
In times like these, I get so frustrated at myself that I FORGET!
I forget what I have, what He has done, what my husband has sacrificed, what my children are learning, what blessings are right in front of my dang face and I forget! Why do we so easily forget what He has done for us? We get so wrapped up in our little lives that we forget to get lost in His love because it's there that we remember. I need to be more attentive, more aware, and more present. I want my boys to see me drop to my knees in the middle of the day and pray out loud for strength and patience. I want my boys to know how real God is and thank Him for a warm house when its snowing or a washer and dryer so we can have clean clothes. I don't want them taking things for granted or wondering where blessings come from...because they are not random. God is so present in our lives.
Jesus has given us everything, paid it all. While we were STILL sinners, Christ died for us.
"But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." Romans 5:8
Doesn't matter if you're caught up in sin or yelling at your kids....Christ died for YOU! Not just the "good" people that have it all together (no one does). Not just the churchgoers or the Pinterest moms. Not just the best bloggers or the patient, calm moms. E V E R Y O N E! Easter is a time to remember and recommit ourselves to living a life of freedom in Him and thankfulness because He died for us.
He is so, so good. Pause tonight. Be still. Put your phone away and have a moment with Jesus and listen to
this song and remember what Christ has done for you.
